Learning about A B & C

I realized that I apparently haven't updated since the students came. How is that even possible? But here I am now! We are approaching the end of lecture phase already! (wait what?!) it's a crazy ride. I'm busier than I ever imagined possible, growing in areas I used to be terrified of, and making friendships that will last forever! Today's updated will be about a few specific things I've been learning: 

A is for "Acceptance" 

I have power. I am worth loving. My words have value. I am bold. I am not delicate. I am a friend of God. I am beloved. 

Sound prideful? I thought so too. I've had many people speak life into me while being here. Not even just here, people have told me these things for years. But having other people tell me, vs me telling me these things, and actually believing these things, that's a different story! I'm learning that it isn't prideful to live out the things that God has put in me. I'm learning to walk these things out, but it's only because I had to decide to ACCEPT them. Freedom is a good thing, friends! Ask God what He has put in you, take it, receive it, accept it and live it. 

B is for "Boredom?" 

I am never bored. I actually can't remember the last time I felt boredom! There is constantly something going on! Always someone to talk to, laugh with, things to do, something happening! There's a main hallway that has become a hang out spot where people leg wrestle, fundraise, "read", do puzzles, talk, facetime..oh the list goes on and on. So there's a variety of options and I love it! We have an exciting crew and I love them dearly! 

C is for "Choices" 

Are you coming back to Oregon? Are  you staying with YWAM? When will you know? How will you get support? You really think you have the capability to lead people to Africa? Are you afraid? 

These are all questions I've been asked recently. And most I don't have answers to. Am I going to move back to Oregon? I don't know. I love Oregon, but as of now I'm content in Madison. Am I staying with YWAM? I don't know. If I could just make a guess I'd say yes, but who knows. When will I know? When God tells me. Not in a cliche way, but really, I'm totally dependent on Him for my info! How will I get support? I'm thankful my God is bigger than a number. Do I think I have the capability to lead a team to Africa? No. And yes. On my own, absolutely not. But my God is a big God. He is a powerful God, and He has the ability to use this life to do great things. I believe He can lead a team, and I believe He is in me, so yes. I believe I can lead a team. Am I afraid? Sometimes I do feel fear when I start focusing on me. Fear is a lie, and fear is a choice. I am choosing to say no to fear. 

Thanks for following my journey.

~Loves~